House For Sale - Colm Toibin
A short story published in the Dublin Review
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‘You must be fed up of them. Will they never stop
coming?’ Tom O’Connor, her neighbour, stood at his front door and
looked at her, waiting for a response. ‘I know,’ she
said. ‘Just don’t answer the door. That’s what I’d
do.’ Nora closed the garden gate. ‘They mean well. People mean
well,’ she said. ‘Night after night,’ he said. ‘I
don’t know how you put up with it.’ She wondered if she could get
back into the house without having to answer him again. He was using a new tone
with her, a tone he would never have tried before. He was speaking as though he
had some authority over her. ‘People mean well,’ she said again,
but saying it this time made her feel sad, made her bite her lip to keep the
tears back. When she caught Tom O’Connor’s eye, she knew that she
must have appeared put down, defeated. She went into the house and closed the
door.That night a knock came at almost eight o’clock. There was a
fire lighting in the back room and the two boys were doing their homework at the
table. ‘You answer it,’ Donal said to Conor. ‘No, you
do.’ ‘One of you answer it,’ she said. Donal, the older
one, went out to the hall. She could hear a voice when he opened the door, it
was a woman’s voice, but not one that she recognized. Donal ushered the
visitor into the front room. ‘It’s the little woman who lives in
Court Street,’ he whispered to her when he came into the back
room. ‘Which little woman?’ she asked. ‘I don’t
know.’ May Larkin shook her head sadly when Nora came into the
front room. ‘Nora, I waited until now. I can’t tell you how sorry
I am about Maurice.’ She reached out and held Nora’s
hand. ‘And he was so young. I knew him when he was a little boy. We
knew them all in Court Street.’ ‘Take off your coat and come into
the back room,’ Nora said. ‘The boys are doing their exercise, but
they can come in here and turn on the electric fire. They’ll be going to
bed soon anyway.’ May Larkin, wisps of thin grey hair appearing from
under her hat, her scarf still around her neck, sat opposite Nora in the back
room and began to talk. After a while, the boys went upstairs; Conor, when Nora
called him, was too shy to come down and say goodnight, but soon Donal came and
sat in the room with them, carefully studying May Larkin, saying nothing. It
was clear now that no one else would call. Nora was relieved that she would not
have to entertain people who did not know each other, or people who did not like
each other. ‘So anyway,’ May Larkin went on, ‘Frank was in
the hospital bed in Brooklyn, and didn’t this man arrive into the bed
beside his, and they got talking, and Frank knew he was Irish, and he told him
he was from the County Wexford.’ She stopped and pursed her lips, as
though she was trying to remember something. Suddenly, she began to imitate the
man’s voice: ‘Oh, and that’s where I’m from, the man
said, and then Frank said he was from Enniscorthy, oh and that’s where
I’m from too, the man said. And he asked Frank what part of Enniscorthy he
was from, and Frank said he was from Court Street.’. May Larkin kept
her eyes fixed on Nora’s face, forcing her to express interest and
surprise. ‘And the man said that’s where I’m from too.
Isn’t that extraordinary!’ She stopped, waiting for a
reply. ‘And he told Frank that before he left the town he made that
iron thing - what would you call it? - a grille or a guard on the windowsill
there at Gerry Crean’s. And I went down to look at it and it’s there
all right. Gerry didn’t know how it got there or when. But the man beside
Frank in the bed in Brooklyn, he said that he made it, he was a welder.
Isn’t that a great coincidence? To happen in Brooklyn.’ Nora made
tea as Donal went to bed. She brought it into the back room on a tray with
biscuits and cake. When they had fussed over the tea things, May Larkin sat back
and sipped her tea and began to talk again. ‘Of course, Frank thought
the world of Maurice. He always asked for him in his letters. They were all
great friends. And of course Maurice was a great teacher. All the boys loved
him.’ Looking into the fire, Nora tried to think back, wondering if May
Larkin had ever been in this house before. She thought not. She had known her
all her life, like so many in the town, to greet and exchange pleasantries with,
or to stop and talk to if there was news. She knew the story of her life down to
her maiden name and the plot in the graveyard where she would be buried. Nora
had heard her singing once at a concert, she remembered her reedy soprano - it
was ‘Home Sweet Home’ or ‘Oft in the Stilly Night’, one
of those songs - and remembered too that she had sung for the British or the
Black and Tans during the Troubles, or so someone had told her. She did not
think that May Larkin moved much except between her house in Court Street and a
few shops, or to Mass on Sundays. They were silent now, and Nora thought that
maybe May would go soon. ‘It’s nice of you to come up and see
me,’ she said. ‘Oh Nora, I was very sorry for you, but I felt
I’d wait, I didn’t want to be crowding in on you. So many people
thought the world of Maurice.’ She refused more tea, and when Nora went
to the kitchen with the tray she thought that May might stand up and put on her
coat, but she did not move from the chair. Nora went upstairs and checked that
the boys were asleep. She smiled to herself at the thought of going to bed
herself now, falling asleep and leaving May Larkin down below, staring into the
fire, waiting for her in vain. ‘Where are the girls?’ May asked
as soon as Nora sat down. ‘I never see them now, they used to pass up and
down all the time.’ ‘Aine is in Bunclody. She’s settling in
there now,’ Nora said. ‘And Fiona is doing her training in
Dublin.’ ‘You’d miss them when they go away,’ May
Larkin said. ‘I miss Frank, I do, but it’s funny, of all of them,
it’s Peggy I think about most. There was something, I don’t know, I
just didn’t want to lose her. She promised - you know all this, Nora - she
promised that she would come home and stay and she’d find some sort of job
here, and then one day when she was just back a week I noticed her all quiet and
it wasn’t like her, and she started to cry at the table, and that’s
when we heard the news that her fellow in New York wouldn’t let her come
home unless she married him. And she had married him there without telling any
of us. ‘Well, that’s that, Peggy, then,’ I said.
‘You’ll have to go back to him, so.’ And I couldn’t face
her or speak to her, and she wanted us all to look at photographs of him and her
together in New York, but I couldn’t look at them. They were the last
thing in the world I wanted to see. And he’s dead now
too.’ ‘Yes, I was sorry to hear that,’ Nora said. May
Larkin began to rummage in her handbag. She put on a pair of reading
glasses. ‘I thought I’d brought Frank’s letter but I must
have left it behind,’ she said. She examined a piece of paper and then
another. ‘No, I haven’t got it. I wanted to show it to you. There
was something he wanted to ask you.’ Nora said nothing. She had not
seen Frank for more than twenty years. ‘Maybe I’ll find the
letter and send it up to you,’ May Larkin said. She stood up to
go. ‘I don’t think he’s going to come home now,’ she
said as she put on her coat. ‘What would he do here? They have their life
there, and they’ve invited me out and everything, but I told Frank
I’d be happy to go to my reward without seeing America. I think though
he’d like to have something here, a place he could visit and maybe his
children or some of the others.’ ‘Well, he has you to
visit,’ Nora said. ‘He thought you’d be selling
Cush,’ May Larkin said, settling her scarf. She spoke as though it were
nothing, but now, as she looked at Nora, her gaze was hard and concentrated and
her chin began to tremble. ‘He asked me if you’d be selling
it,’ she said and closed her mouth firmly. ‘I’ve made no
plans,’ Nora said. May Larkin pursed her lips. She did not
move. ‘I wish I’d brought the letter,’ she said.
‘Frank always loved Cush. He used to go with Maurice and the others, and
he always remembered it. And it hasn’t changed much, everyone there would
know him. The last time he came home he didn’t know half the people in the
town.’ Nora said nothing. She wanted May Larkin to
leave. ‘I’ll tell him I mentioned it to you anyway. That’s
all I can do.’ When Nora did not reply, May Larkin looked at her,
clearly annoyed at her silence. They walked out and stood in the
hall. ‘Time is the great healer, Nora. That’s all I can tell you.
And I can tell you that from experience.’ She sighed as Nora opened the
front door. ‘Thank you for calling up, May,’ Nora
said. ‘Goodnight now, Nora, and look after yourself.’ Nora
watched her as she made her way slowly down along the footpath towards home.
© Copyright Dublin Review 2001
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