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The Sign of The Cross - A Native Son

had time, the flight was not for another few hours, but I was worried that the lights below us would be turned off and we would be motioned to leave. In some way, without realising it, I wanted to see this, I did not want to go home without experiencing it, whatever it was. I did not feel that the pull towards this place was anything supernatural, or outside myself, it was perhaps simply the pull of curiosity. People were kneeling staring up at the lit statue of Our Lady of Lourdes, and others were queueing to touch the rock. I sat and watched them, trying to fathom this: these people around me here in the night believed that the Virgin had come down from heaven and appeared here, that her body had flown through the air to be in this place. I watched them all as I tried to imagine, or remember, what it would be like to believe that.

I stood up and joined the queue to touch the rock.

Most people had gone, and there were just a few pilgrims waiting in line. The woman in front of me touched the rock below the statue with care and concentration as though its power were live and real and she could extract something from it, something miraculous and vital. She stayed there, tracing her hand over the stone. When it came to my turn I bowed my head for a moment, but I did not touch the stone. I went back to my seat and stayed there watching, trying not to think at all.

Soon, it was time to leave, they were going to turn off the lights. I went back to the hotel to find my pilgrims singing songs in unison, full of good humour, waiting for the bus which would take us to the airport and home to Dublin.

Lourdes stayed in my mind. I wrote a piece for radio about it which was never broadcast, and in my first novel

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